It turns out that a number of things that I swore I would never do in life are now presenting themselves and I’m now forced to rethink how I view things.
My weekend was a lot of horrible life decisions that I’m really not all that torn up about making. I didn’t hurt anyone, including myself, and I had a lot of fun! Are they decisions that normal sane people would make? Nope, not a snowball’s chance in hell, in most cases. But… I’m the captain of this shit show of a ship, so I threw caution to the wind. Will I do it all over again, maybe not on one or 2 details, but for the most part… sure, what the hell! I’m a grown adult, right? No one to answer to..
One of the decisions I made needed some consulting with my youngest daughter. In confidence, of course. I picked her to consult because of her free spirit and her usual lack of judgement regarding life choices. She knows me, my heart, and how I think and sometimes her level head and open-minded approach to life is exactly what I need. Boy, did she come through. I’m sometimes too uptight for my own good, so it feels good to get permission or validation from other people.
Other activities over the weekend weren’t discussed with anyone and probably for the best. They were spur of the moment decisions. One I won’t do again and another, I hope to do a lot more of, if it all works out. VAGUE MUCH? Yes… yes I am. Let your mind run wild (comment your craziest thoughts on this and let’s talk!).
The fact that I, at 46, felt the need to consult my 21 yr old about anything made me feel old, out of touch, and boring. Yesterday, I had to ask her what “Hot Girl Summer” meant. Turns out I’m having one.. LOL When it gets to the point that I have to ask her how to fly a hover machine… I’m going to ask her if I can move into her basement and bring all the kitties too.
Lord, I’ve just been presented with yet another iffy life decision for the upcoming weekend… I’m tired of being boring. I just have to get the stick out of my ass and just say YES.. LET’S DO IT!
I think it’s official. Minus the corvette… I think that midlife crisis is in full swing. BRING IT!