Over the last several months, I’ve been trying to locate my “happy”. I’ve focused on self-care, primarily, and keeping my mood light and positive.
Occasionally, an asshole creeps in to ruin the day. Yes, I allow it, but not knowing it’s their intention. Unfortunately, most assholes don’t wear a sign alerting the rest of us about their character. I’m horrible at giving people the benefit of the doubt. I assume there is good in everyone until proven otherwise.
I’ve been working on being relocated at work. I need a change. I let my upper management know that a move to Denver wouldn’t kill me and would be a welcome improvement over Ohio. Since then, and very slowly, the details and the move is coming together. The plan is to move there by April. I can NOT wait.
Bring in the ass-clowns who have no ambition, goals, balls, or willingness to put forth the effort. What they ARE good at doing is planting seeds of doubt in my own self worth, ability to make this move, the likability from upper management, and my value to the company.
What they don’t do is take into account all of the things I have accomplished at this job and what I’ve had to endure. I deserve this move and this “promotion” if there is one. Even if there isn’t, upper management likes me enough to give me this opportunity and I’ll be damn if I’m going to let anyone blow this for me… except me.
I would NEVER try to destroy the hope that someone has for a better life. I don’t understand why people feel the need to try to keep me down all the time. The only explanation is that I’m the only one that puts up with their nonsense and when I’m gone… who will pick up the ball and run with it for them? Ultimately, it’s their problem, and I need to be able to see the jealousy, envy, and efforts to destroy me a lot faster. I need to keep details about everything to myself until the day I move.
It can’t happen fast enough.