I understand the need and the science behind this whole “social distancing” thing and everything shutting down.
I live alone. Most of my neighbors are assholes. The only neighbors I like left town to go to their “summer” home because the schools are shut down.
Work is a nightmare because I work for a major ISP and every company on the planet is trying to amp up their bandwidth for their remote workers, so emergency requests and people yelling has become my new norm.
I feel the anxiety of everyone online, all of my friends, all of my coworkers (local and remote), EVERYONE right now. I feel the worry and the desperation too… I feel all of it and it’s taking its toll.
I’m exhausted, lonely, overwhelmed, out of groceries (haven’t been buying because I’m moving and now the stores are empty)… ready to burst into tears at any moment. Worried my move is going to be delayed, worried I’m going to be driving across the country and nothing will be open… already paying for a house I can’t live in and if they shut the whole fuckin country down, I’ll be paying mortgage and rent and utilities in 2 residences for MONTHS! I’m on the verge of a nervous breakdown at this point.
I’m whining, I know. First world problems. I know that there are so much worse scenarios. I’m not discounting any of that, I just have no one to vent to and I don’t cry (especially after just doing my makeup – insert eye roll here!).
Check in on your people. For those of us that are already afraid of dying alone because we’re just too much for people to understand or handle, this is our hell. Temporary or not.