Yesterday could’ve been 5 years with Jim.  Should’ve been.

I avoided life at all cost yesterday.  Memories on the “book” etc.  I got all kinds of caught up on TV, watched a movie (although for the life of me I can’t remember which one.. must’ve sucked).  Took some naps.. It was a waste of a day but it was better than being around anyone and being pre-occupied with the thought of him and memories that we had made over the years.

I sent a very brief email stating I missed him and hoped he was well.  CRICKETS.  Which I expected but was hoping for better from him.  He has literally ghosted me since the day he left.  His ex before me owed him a couple thousand dollars for a car and he’s friends with her and still speaks to her… I just don’t understand the radio silence.

So.  Today is a new day.  I’ve gotten through what I considered to be the worst of it.  TIME TO MOVE ON!

Just wish I could erase him from my brain.  Completely.